Crazy By The World's Standard, But Found Faithful By God Of The Bible

A personal prayer for today

(This isn’t a typical article, but more a personal prayer & journal entry of reflection…)

I’d rather be considered crazy by the world’s standard and fully trust in who God says He is and what He is going to do and risk being wrong, then be logical and self-led and it turns out to be right.

That’s how convinced I’ve become that Jesus is the Messiah and is returning someday to Earth to set up His kingdom. Many in the world are gearing up to miss Him again and will wage war against Him - the King of the Jews and our risen Messiah.

If I’m wrong about it all (I do not think with any ounce of my being that I am), but if I am wrong, I’d rather be wrong and found nuts by the world for believing in the God of the Bible, then spend the rest of my life striving for self-actualization and the elevation of self to its own end… even if that somehow ended up being right (which I don’t believe it is).

That is the risk I’m willing to take because of the miraculous internal work the Holy Spirit has done in my heart, spirit, and mind over the last months.

There is no other explanation for the soul level spiritual surgery God has done in me, unless you want to attribute it to psychosis (which… feel free to do so). But psychosis doesn’t release anxiety, bring the fruit of forgiveness, peace, reconciliation, realignment of priorities, prayer & worship, and overall well being.

I can say that I know the living God. I know Him. I hear His voice. I know His Heart through the Word. I see what He cares about when I read the scripture. What matters to Him. I miss Him when I get distracted by the day’s stress and my mind wanders.

I can’t believe that I get to know God on this side of heaven. What an incredible privilege and honor to be given access to the heart of God. To know that no matter how much I learn, it will only begin to scratch the surface of who He is.

Sometimes when I meet with Him in the morning I get caught up in how much I’ve fallen short. It’s hard to spend time with God everyday and not begin to experience just how deep and wide and horrible my sin is. It’s overwhelming. It can be a struggle for me to remember that I am redeemed and covered by blood and atonement of Jesus.

Can it really be true? Every day? Every day I get to come before God whole and clean and righteous?

I read Psalm 18:21-23 where King David— the man who committed adultery with Bathsheba and killed her husband— says…

“For I have kept the ways of the Lord, and have not wickedly departed from my God. For all his rules were before me, and his statutes I did not put away from me. I was blameless before him, and I kept myself from my guilt.” - Psalm 18:21-23

How could David be so confident?! I know God says David was a man after God’s heart, and his life wasn’t full of sin entirely, but that confidence was astounding. It reminds me….

I too can be that confident when I come to God because my righteousness isn’t from me, it’s from Jesus. And His righteousness covering me is complete.

"For our sake He made Him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in Him we might become the righteousness of God." - 2 Corinthians 5:21

I think about all the Patriarchs in the Old Testament. Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Moses, David, and others. Who had to trust Yahweh without the viewpoint we have today. Those who had to believe in a Messiah that was to come instead of the Messiah who has come.

What incredible faith they had!

If they can do it without half of what I have been given today, I can have faith too. What has been my weakest attribute (faith & trust in something I cannot see), is the very thing He’s calling out of me.

Increase my faith God.

May I be found foolish by the world but faithful in Your sight.

xx

"I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord… and be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith."
- Philippians 3:8-9

If you read this reflection and wondered what I did or what has happened to shift my faith and belief so much? I started reading the Bible every.single.day. One chapter a day. It started out as 5-10 minutes and now is closer to an hour.

I pray and read the Bible. And everything that has changed in my heart have been directly the result of reading scripture and praying. You can see some of my Bible studies here.